Adrift..

Life seems to be just pulling over these days.. nothing much happening, not that I want anything to happen that makes me anxious. Bit apprehensive about what may happen next.
I feel , am loosing myself. I was a well planned guy, in control of things, and focused on what I had to do. These days, I feel am adrift in a lonely boat in the middle of the sea, tossed around by the waves, I have but a distinct memory of where I was supposed to be heading. Have lost the oars of the boat and cant control it any more. The sights and seens that I can see while at sea, that of the serene mornings and colorful evenings are all very nice, but they dont add up in getting me to where i wanted to go. I think fortunately i have forgotten where i was headed to by now. Maybe this is what they call destiny...